Distraction

I knew you were there In the corner, right to me. Writing these word by word, drinking the mocha sip by sip from the cafe that was my favorite. I had words and you had the thought Closer than ever but worlds apart Engrossed in my music and the art You wanted to say it but waited for me And I was weak and scared to look up Writing was distraction but I needed it.

Fireflies of love

It's refulgent, has been refurbished

with every tactile experience.

It's no longer veneer and glossed

Verity of spark is perspicuous.

It's fireflies of love

Visceral and no longer vicarious.

It's scintilla of tenderness

Transmuting dead to vivacious.

The wood is radiant

Pied and striated with silver                  

Love is warbling

Singing so loud and fervor.

Sylvan is dark

But no longer stygian

Chirp is mellifluous

Who says it is stentorian!

It's fireflies of love

Beaming, glowing and singing

We are the Adam and the Eve

Dancing, mingling and merrymaking.

Pen ... It has been a while

My keeper, my alter-ego, my dear Pen.

I know it has been a while writing.

I am very well aware of your anguish that is 

Letting you lose your heart and soul.

Picture Courtesy: © Tanschn K, Carmen Sisson 

and Alekhya Mukhopadhyay

Collaged by me.

You have been whimpering over nib

While I am busy with drudgery.

From early slumber to dawn’s sleep

You've been witnessing my dreams,

My somber, my enthusiasm, ecstasy,

Even deepest esoteric secrets

Frozen somewhere within my heart.

Those nursery rhymes,

From first letter of alphabet to 

Einstein’s special theory of relativity;

From writing my first ever elocution

To my resume, you never left my grasp.

It was you who came to rescue

When expressions were mute.

You metamorphosed from ink to Ink,

But indefatigable to pacify me.

Unexpressed emotions ensconced

At your tip is burdening you.

Before pyre of chord ashes you

My sentiments has taken a grasp of you.

It is running on pages like a centurion

Of the heart, determined to shred encumbrance

Of eons, letting the will free from physical realms.

Crossroad

Stupefied by emotions,

Memories gone by.

I see your hands leaving

Your steps receding away.

Tears crossing your cheeks

Muddled dreams with outburst of pain

Puts a wall of silence across.

Where are you going ?

I want to say sorry

Alas! She kisses me on the crossroad

She touches my heart that beats for you,

The heart that is yours.

She holds me tight, hugs

The wall reinforces ...

but I want to ask!

Are you expecting an apology?

Are you expecting a confession?

Standing on the crossroad,

Bewildered, I am battling with myself.

तेरी-वो-बात-ना-आई-है

राह देखते तेरी , शाम  ढलने को आई है।

तेरे क़दमों के निशाँ मिटा भी ना पाई की रुश्बाई चली आई है,

आई है सूखी पंखुरियों की खुशबू,

बस तेरी याद आई है , तेरी परछाई ना आई है ,

बस तेरी याद आई है , तेरी परछाई ना आई है।

बंद करने पे आँखें, तेरी हर बात नज़र आई है ,

बिखरे ख्वाबों को समेटते , मेरी आँख भर आई है।

लायी है तेरी प्यार की चाहत ,

आई है दुआ तेरी , तेरी वो बात ना आई है,

आई है दुआ तेरी , तेरी वो बात ना आई है।

My diary becomes my keeper

A long day is worth noting some day A lonely night is worth quoting sometimes When you are not with me My diary becomes my keeper

A silent talk is worth telling something

Some hushed voices are meant to shout When I miss you, My diary becomes my keeper.

Your ignorance is a bliss,

Caring a felicity When memories perturb me My diary becomes my keeper.

Today, the keeper is restless, anxious and wet with my tears Ink whimpering over nib Tears ensconced, hence failed to slake.

अंतहीन-सी-इक-आशा

अंतहीन सी इक आशा लगी वो 

मेरे माथे को चूम के 

निकल पड़ी किसी की तलाश में 

कदमों को छूके उन्हें उड़ने की चाह देके 

निकल पड़ी किसी की तलाश में 

अंतहीन सी इक आशा लगी वो 

गुदगुदाती हुई, प्यार से इठलाती हुई 

आगे पढने की प्रेरणा दे चली वो 

दे चली मुझे चार पल की जिंदगानी 

लिख चली हथेली पे इक निशानी  

अंतहीन सी इक आशा लगी वो 

किल्कारती पुचकारती 

ख़्वाबों के पंख लगाके 

मेरे सपने बुनते हुए 

निकल पड़ी किसी की तलाश में 

मुस्कुराती खिलखिलाती 

अंगडाईयां लेती हुई

मेरे गालों को सहलाते हुए 

निकल पड़ी किसी की तलाश में 

वो अंतहीन सी  आशा

The world within me

It’s realm of turbulence

Annealed with broken hope,

Quenched by worldly expectations,

Roaring every second from agony

Accumulated over eons

Imprisoned!!!

Fighting demons of bodily need

Haunted over failures

Recollecting shattered pieces

Fixing inch by inch

And praying to divine

The world within me

Is seeking peace and liberation.

Free Will

Flying on knee
floating on elbow
Refracting beyond slit
Crossing the curve line
An utopia of desire has come
Leaving behind stretches
wrinkled with worries
The way Aaron once phrased
Free will has taken a new leap.

Speak your heart Out

Written on 

On Occasion of international women’s day, 

Dedicated to most important women of my life, my Mom, Mausi, Didi, Ma'm, CollegeMates and Someone Special ;)

Weeping at Corner of room,
Hiding enough from the world;
Rude, Materialistic and selfish;
Frozen tears on cheeks;
Dry hair and Cluttered frocks;
Soul is sinking beneath unspoken.

Circulation of red is slowing down.
Racing beats is question of wounds.
Consolation fossilized with dry lips,
Carrying burden on heart,
Cycling through dusk and dawn!
Oh Come on! It’s over!

It has over now!
Come one!  Speak your heart out!
Stand up on feet and
Hold my hand to walk without Complain.
Say to world “Hello again”.
Resurrection of love is smiling,
Knocking at the door to open,
Spelled by your Beauty Divine!!

Come on! Speak your heart out!
Activate and continue your fight.
Laugh and Smile under night.
With Confessions made in heaven,
Stars are lit seven.
Promises are kept to hold you forever!
Hold your hand tight ever and forever!
Oh Come on! Speak your heart out!

You say heart of stone never loves!!

You say a heart of stone never loves,
never loves a broken crockery,
a cracked piece of glass and
Crushed tumbler kept at my table
and broken piles of wood
lying on muddy floor.


But have you tried to touch my heart?
Have you ever felt love unconditionally
Bonding beyond visible range
Where Mother Nature is loving
So truly and so holy

Signifying each and every atom
Presence of love from lap of almighty father
Kiss of holy mother at forehead
So true and pure
synchronizing you and me with
every vibration, up and down
beyond unimaginable thinking

Holding fallen 

Grasping unbalanced

keeping you by side

helping days and night

Chills and burns, sandy storm

Frozen, cold and molten form

Almighty never stops caring

Loving endlessly without a glitch

making presence every moment

at height higher than thinking

with depth deeper than sadness

Unquestionable unstoppable

Sparking and igniting dead’s into living

Answers to every quest fundamentally proving.

And still you say heart of stone never loves!!

Hey Maa ...

Hey Maa ...

Is Sansaar Ka uddhhaar karo ..

Fir se aan pado is dharti par ...

Aur unka sanhaaar karo ...

Hey Maa ...

Dharti Paap se kalusit ho chuki ...

Sristi ab bahut ro chuki ...

Sarvnash ki ghadi hai aa chuki ...

Hey Maa ...

Ab to aan pado ..

Kalyug ke rakt-beejon ka sanhaar karo ...

MahisaSur ka naash karo ...

 

Hey Maa ...

Dekh teri is rachna me 

Kaise kaise dosh huye hain

Kaisi kaisi syaah lagi hai

Dekh tere is aachal me

Kaise kaise daag huye hai

kaisi kaisi dhul jami hai

Hey Maa ...

Dharti Ab to dol rahi hai,

Dwar Pralay ke khol rahi hai

Mrityu Jeevan Leel rahi hai

Paapi Baazi jeet rahe hain

Ab to MahaSangram Karo

Hey Maa Dharti Pe aan pado

Aan Pado Maa, aan Pado

Ab to dharti pe aan pado

Igorance

Don't ignore me so much

Don’t hate me so much

That my innocence loses its charm

That I become utterly cruel

That you get thorns and no roses

That sleep becomes no different from nightmare

Because world starts with you, ends with you

Because heart beats in you, dream lies in you

Because desire rests with you, hope builds with you

Because eternity prevails in you, mortality kills in you

Because last time it was not ended well

And I was not so good to you

And I was so away from you

And my mistake is killing me

And separation is weakening me

And I am saying sorry my love

And I am waiting for you to come

And I am asking you to end it well

And I am asking to end up fight

And I am asking to hold me tight

Because I love you, because I love you

A while

With drops on eyelids,

Emptiness in the heart

Nib’s frozen, refused to write

Broken thoughts, ceased to fight

I am sinking deep beneath

You have not spoken a word,

Together we have not walked a mile

It has been a while, a long while

Lost and incomplete

Wrinkled with pain,

Surmounted by sorrow

I have not kissed your forehead

I have not seen your smile

It has been a while, a long while.

180 Degree

Frost on the window bars
Still, untouched, so pure,
Chilling breeze, invading through
Passing by my neck
Fireplace burning coal; trying to fight,
Sometimes wins, sometimes loses
Someone knocking at the door
Messaging me in, kitty laying
On floor sitting, snoring on mat
Is now wide awaken,
Shh ... IT'S WINTER,
Poor little kitty ... its end of a misery,
Another may come!
Nature has taken a 180 degree turn.

To be happy or sad,
Musing over cup of coffee
Tormented, tortured, thrown
Counting days through blazing sun,
Sleepless, sweating in the night
Haunted by failures, devastated by thoughts,
Made path along them,
Then Burnt by sun, now shivering with cold
End of misery and beginning of another.
Life has taken a 180 degree turn.